Ok, I know that, I haven’t been here in weeks and keeping track of what, I am going though badly. I just don’t have the mood to write. Anyway. I am dealing with something new. Plantar Fasciitis. Man this hurts. It slowed me down way more than I was before. I have to lean on more of my left leg and It doesn’t like it.
Right now, I have it in shoes and it hurts badly. Like needles and burns.
Morning- ok I took a rest from walking but I did do some housework but, I am walking Paul to school with my wife. That going to be little more than a 2 miles and than we are walking back home. I would be walking around 4 miles. I will let you know how it goes.
Anyway, I am goso my tk be walking for couple days and I know my new foot injury on my right foot is going j hate me. I am dealing with Plantar Fasciitis. Man. Is hurts
10:14Pm- ok, I was mostly been on the couch until my wife came home around 6, I cooked some sweet potatoes 🍠 and I was standing for couple hours. Now my left leg is bit swollen and dealing with some nerve pain as in tingling feeling down my foot. My right foot is having sharp pain on my heal on the out side of the foot. I hate this. I’m doing to sleep.
I know I haven’t written for a while. Past few days my ankle and knee has been hurting. Don’t know what’s making it hurt. Maybe walking to much. 😞
Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me.
Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog
I have been dealing with a lot of pain since, how my leg and foot haven’t healed as it should. I like, i have some high knee boots ( Yes, men boots. ) I like them cus, they good for my foot. but, my ankle doesn’t like it. The front part of my ankle. I get a sharp tight knot pain like being stabbed when, I do step.
I haven’t really been doing any PT for a long while but, I am having a hard time to push my self to do it. I( am mostly dealing with my recovery alone. I dont have someone who is with me help me to get better the best i can but, I need to press my self more but, I dont have any PUSH from the inside. I dont know why and I dont know where, I could get it.
I did get a pair of boots that, I can where but, I believe that, I have worn them out cus, my ankle part of the boot feels so, soft and weak.
I just don’t know.
Also, I have been dealing with some pain in my knee
for some how, my screw came loose. Who could have guess that.
I hope, that i could get some views and comments who anyway.
I am dealing with a lot of pain right now. I don’t know what the reason. It could be the screws or how missed up my leg and foot is. I can’t see a PT to help it but I got to do my Pt all by my self. That’s is very hard for me to do it. I having a hard time wanting to write cus, I am dealing with depression. I am hope get that fixed soon when, I see my PDOC. I also, dealing with a lot of weakness in my leg. Sigh
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I have been not feeling ok for couple days. I best to sat is that, I am depressed but its more a mixed episode. Its more depression. Anyway, I took a walk with my Son to Whole foods. Its was a nice walk. Wife sent me to get few things and it was hot out. We went to starbucks to get a cup of water. It tasted good. I not sure if, it was cus, we were thirsty or it did taste good.
My leg been hurting and Its like its always some kind of pain and I hate that, I am always in some kind of pain. I need to find a foot doctor so, I can better. I also should start to do some PT but, its so hard to do it all by my self and this is hard for me to deal with. I mean, i feel all alone with this. I want someone to be here to go through this but, i am mostly me. I hate it. Sigh. I walked today like, almost 3 miles.
Sorry that I haven’t been writing past few days. It’s been hard for me to write. My bipolar/ depression makes it so hard want to write. Anyway, I did a lot past few days. I went to my Aunt Mina house for a family gathering. It was nice while we were only there for 2 days. I love going there.
Today, My leg didn’t feel too good cus, from all the rain from yesterday and i did some walking and it was like, 81 today. I did more walking than i wanted too. We went to Royal Farms and got few things. I didn’t use my cane. That was stupid. Now my Achilles hurts from all the walking. I mean, I should have been smarter.
Its feels like, a scab needs to be ripped off but, its inside my leg. I am now laying on the bed giving my leg a rest while, I am writing this blog and having lunch late. Sigh.
Day- 580
I had a busy day. I went out to help my wife. I took the bus to Bank of America and I had to wait a while for the bus to show up. Anyway, When I got back. I only had for few mins like, 20 mins. My doughtier grandmother sent a box for her birthday and had some money for her.
She wanted to go out and get a Build-A-Bear.
At the time that, we left the store. I was like limping badly and I didn’t want to make her birthday trip bad. I just pressed on. My amazing wife, saw it and wanted to go home but, we stayed little bit more.
She got few things to eat but, they walked and I limped around the mall. I didn’t bring my cane. So, I had to suffer for little bit. Took the bus home and when, i got home, I rested and iced up my foot.
While i was limping around. I was depressed cus, how slow and how i am suck no fun when, i am like this. I feel like a bothersome.
Day- 579
Morning: I just woke up and I still feel out of it. My back hurts and I know it’s from my leg. It’s sucks. Sigh. My ankle hurts little and this won’t let long. Sigh
Day- 574
-Today.
I didn’t do anything I’m with the lay down and watch some TV and play video games. I got up and I did a chore took the trash out that took a lot of work have a lot of nerve pain. And my knees my thighs my ankles and my feet.
I have a good friend that, I chat with on FB.
She always makes me feel better when, I need to vent and talk about my brokenness. No one understand whats it like, when they dont go though it. Its easy for them to say not talk or nag about it. I am the only who feels it all day everyday.
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