2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me. Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog I have been […]

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2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me. Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog I have been […]

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2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me.

Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog

I have been dealing with a lot of pain since, how my leg and foot haven’t healed as it should. I like, i have some high knee boots ( Yes, men boots. ) I like them cus, they good for my foot. but, my ankle doesn’t like it.  The front part of my ankle. I get a sharp tight knot pain like being stabbed when, I do step.

I haven’t really been doing any PT for a long while but, I am having a hard time to push my self to do it. I( am mostly dealing with my recovery alone. I dont have someone who is with me help me to get better the best i can but, I need to press my self more but, I dont have any PUSH from the inside. I dont know why and I dont know where, I could get it.

I did get a pair of boots that, I can where but, I believe that, I have worn them out cus, my ankle part of the boot feels so, soft and weak.
I just don’t know.

Also, I have been dealing with some pain in my knee

for some how, my screw came loose. Who could have guess that.

I hope, that i could get some views and comments who anyway.

(Dec. 10th, 2016) Day – 767

I am dealing with a lot of pain right now. I don’t know what the reason. It could be the screws or how missed up my leg and foot is. I can’t see a PT to help it but I got to do my Pt all by my self. That’s is very hard for me to do it. I having a hard time wanting to write cus, I am dealing with depression. I am hope get that fixed soon when, I see my PDOC. I also, dealing with a lot of weakness in my leg. Sigh

7/9/16 Day- 599

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  ~Whole Foods~

 

I have been not feeling ok for couple days. I best to sat is that, I am depressed but its more a mixed episode. Its more depression. Anyway, I took a walk with my Son to Whole foods. Its was a nice walk. Wife sent me to get few things and it was hot out. We went to starbucks to get a cup of water. It tasted good. I not sure if, it was cus, we were thirsty or it did taste good.

My leg been hurting and Its like its always some kind of pain and I hate that, I am always in some kind of pain. I need to find a foot doctor so, I can better. I also should start to do some PT but, its so hard to do it all by my self and this is hard for me to deal with. I mean, i feel all alone with this. I want someone to be here to go through this but, i am mostly me. I hate it. Sigh. I walked today like, almost 3 miles.

 

February 26th, 2016 (Day- 480)

On the 26th of Feb.- well, I got up later today around 9 0’clock. I did go to bed late cus, I was doing some house work before I go to bed.

Anyway, for the past 6 day that I haven’t been writing. I have like lost all passion to write here. It’s like, I write not so good and seeing people don’t read it makes hard for me to write. I know I use this to track what I go though but, it’s depressing when you see (no comments and hardly any likes, followers) 
 

I want to make changes in myself, I want to have a look and be happy how, look. Hard when you see your self fat and ugly. I want to have this kind of body. I hate being around 230lbs and that’s what I was last time I weight my self. Now I could be bigger. (Sight) 

  

  • The kind of body I want to have

  

Anyway, I been doing more foot lifts. I started day before yesterday. I did 100 on the 25th and didn’t yesterday and only 50 today. I need to crack on t. I also noticing I am gaining muscle or swelling on the front of my leg. You can see.


I am also dealing some pain in my ankle, behind my ankle bone. Don’t know why and also pain on my Achilles’ tendon. Could be too much working out and hurting it or soar from paining muscle.


That’s all I can writing right now.

December, 21st 2015 (Days – 412) – Physical Therapy

On the 21at of December- 
12:45Am-

I know I know, I have been. Slacking in my daily blog. I have had hard time writing down what’s going on and what I feel. Trying to write is like putting on a smile on a depressed person. Its only 28 mins in today and I can’t write much about it but, I have two doctors appointments today.

                  Doctors Appointments

  • Therapy @ 11:00Am
  • Physical therapy @ 1:30Pm

So, I have a very busy day today  walking to physical therapy is 2.5 miles and so, I would be walking there and back be like walking 5 miles

oh yea I forgot, I also be walking early in the morning after slaughter goes on the bus. That would also 4 more miles of walking.

                 

                       (Too Much Walking)


At times, I feel my ankle swelling from all the walking.  Even my physical therapy says that’s too much walking.  He told me that my leg is very little muscle and can see the bone easy.  😓

This sucks

-3:44 Pm 

Just came from the physical therapy and I owe $40 cuz co-pay. This is so stressful.  Just finding a doctor that I need to go too and be able to go too.

This sucks.

I want to stay here cuz, I am tired of going different place. I did a lot of work there in a short time. It made my leg soar from the work out’s but,  Oh My God. My knee had it the worse cus, I have had sharp pain that lasted the whole time until, I went on the foot/ankle water compressor

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