2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me. Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog I have been […]

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2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me. Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog I have been […]

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(Dec. 10th, 2016) Day – 767

I am dealing with a lot of pain right now. I don’t know what the reason. It could be the screws or how missed up my leg and foot is. I can’t see a PT to help it but I got to do my Pt all by my self. That’s is very hard for me to do it. I having a hard time wanting to write cus, I am dealing with depression. I am hope get that fixed soon when, I see my PDOC. I also, dealing with a lot of weakness in my leg. Sigh

6/6/2016 Day- 580

Day- 580

 

I had a busy day. I went out to help my wife. I took the bus to Bank of America and I had to wait a while for the bus to show up. Anyway, When I got back. I only had for few mins like, 20 mins. My doughtier grandmother sent a box for her birthday and had some money for her.

She wanted to go out and get a Build-A-Bear.

build a bear

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In the making

Happy birthday girl

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


 

      At the time that, we left the store. I was like limping badly and I didn’t want to make her birthday trip bad. I just pressed on. My amazing wife, saw it and wanted to go home but, we stayed little bit more.

   She got few things to eat but, they walked and I limped around the mall. I didn’t bring my cane.  So, I had to suffer for little bit. Took the bus home and when, i got home, I rested and iced up my foot.

   While i was limping around. I was depressed  cus, how slow and how i am suck no fun when, i am like this. I feel like a bothersome.

February 26th, 2016 (Day- 480)

On the 26th of Feb.- well, I got up later today around 9 0’clock. I did go to bed late cus, I was doing some house work before I go to bed.

Anyway, for the past 6 day that I haven’t been writing. I have like lost all passion to write here. It’s like, I write not so good and seeing people don’t read it makes hard for me to write. I know I use this to track what I go though but, it’s depressing when you see (no comments and hardly any likes, followers) 
 

I want to make changes in myself, I want to have a look and be happy how, look. Hard when you see your self fat and ugly. I want to have this kind of body. I hate being around 230lbs and that’s what I was last time I weight my self. Now I could be bigger. (Sight) 

  

  • The kind of body I want to have

  

Anyway, I been doing more foot lifts. I started day before yesterday. I did 100 on the 25th and didn’t yesterday and only 50 today. I need to crack on t. I also noticing I am gaining muscle or swelling on the front of my leg. You can see.


I am also dealing some pain in my ankle, behind my ankle bone. Don’t know why and also pain on my Achilles’ tendon. Could be too much working out and hurting it or soar from paining muscle.


That’s all I can writing right now.

December 12th, 2015 (Day- 403)

On the 12 of December- Woke up not feeling to good. My leg hurt bad like tight or swollen but, not sure. It could been both.  I got up later than, i mostly days. I got up around 10am. I mostly get up around 6am and its hell for me. when the child goes to school, I go back to sleep. Its sucks that, i get tired a lot and easy.

We went out with my father today but, wife had to get some blood drawn but, it went fast.

After that, we went some where to eat and I behonest. I see, that i am some what still depressed cus, I really dont want to eat. When, i doo I get ful fast. I mostly eat my candy bars up but, I still got my first one this month. I mean, I was deeper then this but, I see that, i am still sad. This sucks.

I still really do my work outs cus, I feel so, not in the mood.

“I NEED SOMEONE HERE WITH ME DO THEM WITH ME”

i know it’s sad.

I am ashamed

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We went out for bit cus, wife had to do get something done. After that, we went to panera bread. I got my bread bowl.

” I Loved It”

Wife and I shared some salad. it was nice.

Later-

We had to go to her doctor appointment and waited again in the waiting room. Our Daughter fell sleep on the couch. I never could understand how she can sleep like that, our oldest can do that too. I wont be able too stand the hot air from me breathing on my face.

Thats it……..