2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me. Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog I have been […]

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2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me. Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog I have been […]

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2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me.

Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog

I have been dealing with a lot of pain since, how my leg and foot haven’t healed as it should. I like, i have some high knee boots ( Yes, men boots. ) I like them cus, they good for my foot. but, my ankle doesn’t like it.  The front part of my ankle. I get a sharp tight knot pain like being stabbed when, I do step.

I haven’t really been doing any PT for a long while but, I am having a hard time to push my self to do it. I( am mostly dealing with my recovery alone. I dont have someone who is with me help me to get better the best i can but, I need to press my self more but, I dont have any PUSH from the inside. I dont know why and I dont know where, I could get it.

I did get a pair of boots that, I can where but, I believe that, I have worn them out cus, my ankle part of the boot feels so, soft and weak.
I just don’t know.

Also, I have been dealing with some pain in my knee

for some how, my screw came loose. Who could have guess that.

I hope, that i could get some views and comments who anyway.

6/6/2016 Day- 580

Day- 580

 

I had a busy day. I went out to help my wife. I took the bus to Bank of America and I had to wait a while for the bus to show up. Anyway, When I got back. I only had for few mins like, 20 mins. My doughtier grandmother sent a box for her birthday and had some money for her.

She wanted to go out and get a Build-A-Bear.

build a bear

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In the making

Happy birthday girl

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


 

      At the time that, we left the store. I was like limping badly and I didn’t want to make her birthday trip bad. I just pressed on. My amazing wife, saw it and wanted to go home but, we stayed little bit more.

   She got few things to eat but, they walked and I limped around the mall. I didn’t bring my cane.  So, I had to suffer for little bit. Took the bus home and when, i got home, I rested and iced up my foot.

   While i was limping around. I was depressed  cus, how slow and how i am suck no fun when, i am like this. I feel like a bothersome.

January 6st, 2016 (Day – 428)

On the 6st of January- 

I haven’t been in a good mood for past couple days. I hate that I been moody but it can be cuz my bipolar or it just be my life upsetting me or both. (Sight) 

  I did a lot of house work and I am proud of myself that I did all that work. Even thou no one bdaysanything about it. I did dishes few times and then cleaned the stove, cleaned the floor and moped it, vacuum, took a break and then went back to cleaning. Family was sleep by then. 

  my ankle hurt a lot then. I had to take a break. I watched stargate Atlantis. 

December 16th, 2015 (Day- 407) – Physical therapy (Missed)

On the 16th of December-

I will be writing for my two blogs with this post. BrokeAssCripple and MaddpolarM3.

I been depressed for a while now. This sucks. I been sleeping a lot and it’s the only place that I feel best or relaxed. I am so sick of feeling this pain or doing everything around the pain.

  1. Can’t walk a lot
  2. Can’t walk too hard
  3. Can’t have my foot down for too long
  4. Can’t carry heavy
  5. Can’t walk in rain (Can slip easy)
  6. Always very slow
    That’s only a few of thing’s that gets me sad or depressed. I hate that, I can’t do things, like I use to too. I went to my PT and I was 30 mins late. I was to be there at 1:15pm but, I showed up like 1:43Pm. I feel do stupid. I hate that, I am always forgetting. My mind is everywhere and I can’t think str8.
     I walked like 6 miles today and I was so much pain and I need to sleep to feel better. I had few hour’s sleep on the couch and It helped me feel better but, my leg didn’t feel too good still. That’s, all I can write right now.

December 12th, 2015 (Day- 403)

On the 12 of December- Woke up not feeling to good. My leg hurt bad like tight or swollen but, not sure. It could been both.  I got up later than, i mostly days. I got up around 10am. I mostly get up around 6am and its hell for me. when the child goes to school, I go back to sleep. Its sucks that, i get tired a lot and easy.

We went out with my father today but, wife had to get some blood drawn but, it went fast.

After that, we went some where to eat and I behonest. I see, that i am some what still depressed cus, I really dont want to eat. When, i doo I get ful fast. I mostly eat my candy bars up but, I still got my first one this month. I mean, I was deeper then this but, I see that, i am still sad. This sucks.

I still really do my work outs cus, I feel so, not in the mood.

“I NEED SOMEONE HERE WITH ME DO THEM WITH ME”

i know it’s sad.

I am ashamed

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We went out for bit cus, wife had to do get something done. After that, we went to panera bread. I got my bread bowl.

” I Loved It”

Wife and I shared some salad. it was nice.

Later-

We had to go to her doctor appointment and waited again in the waiting room. Our Daughter fell sleep on the couch. I never could understand how she can sleep like that, our oldest can do that too. I wont be able too stand the hot air from me breathing on my face.

Thats it……..