I am dealing with a lot of pain right now. I don’t know what the reason. It could be the screws or how missed up my leg and foot is. I can’t see a PT to help it but I got to do my Pt all by my self. That’s is very hard for me to do it. I having a hard time wanting to write cus, I am dealing with depression. I am hope get that fixed soon when, I see my PDOC. I also, dealing with a lot of weakness in my leg. Sigh
Oct. 3rd, 2016 (Day- 700)
-Ok, I had to walk to shoppers and back but on the way home, after we stopped at Royle Farms. My body started acting up. Not my foot but my hip, foot, knee.
The whole works. Man this sucks. It’s been all day and still hurts when I move my knee. I don’t know sigh.
I have been not feeling ok for couple days. I best to sat is that, I am depressed but its more a mixed episode. Its more depression. Anyway, I took a walk with my Son to Whole foods. Its was a nice walk. Wife sent me to get few things and it was hot out. We went to starbucks to get a cup of water. It tasted good. I not sure if, it was cus, we were thirsty or it did taste good.
My leg been hurting and Its like its always some kind of pain and I hate that, I am always in some kind of pain. I need to find a foot doctor so, I can better. I also should start to do some PT but, its so hard to do it all by my self and this is hard for me to deal with. I mean, i feel all alone with this. I want someone to be here to go through this but, i am mostly me. I hate it. Sigh. I walked today like, almost 3 miles.
Sorry that I haven’t been writing past few days. It’s been hard for me to write. My bipolar/ depression makes it so hard want to write. Anyway, I did a lot past few days. I went to my Aunt Mina house for a family gathering. It was nice while we were only there for 2 days. I love going there.
Today, My leg didn’t feel too good cus, from all the rain from yesterday and i did some walking and it was like, 81 today. I did more walking than i wanted too. We went to Royal Farms and got few things. I didn’t use my cane. That was stupid. Now my Achilles hurts from all the walking. I mean, I should have been smarter.
Its feels like, a scab needs to be ripped off but, its inside my leg. I am now laying on the bed giving my leg a rest while, I am writing this blog and having lunch late. Sigh.
I had a busy day. I went out to help my wife. I took the bus to Bank of America and I had to wait a while for the bus to show up. Anyway, When I got back. I only had for few mins like, 20 mins. My doughtier grandmother sent a box for her birthday and had some money for her.
She wanted to go out and get a Build-A-Bear.
At the time that, we left the store. I was like limping badly and I didn’t want to make her birthday trip bad. I just pressed on. My amazing wife, saw it and wanted to go home but, we stayed little bit more.
She got few things to eat but, they walked and I limped around the mall. I didn’t bring my cane. So, I had to suffer for little bit. Took the bus home and when, i got home, I rested and iced up my foot.
While i was limping around. I was depressed cus, how slow and how i am suck no fun when, i am like this. I feel like a bothersome.
Morning: I just woke up and I still feel out of it. My back hurts and I know it’s from my leg. It’s sucks. Sigh. My ankle hurts little and this won’t let long. Sigh
On 2nd of March- I haven’t don’t really anything today. I am sick and my foot is inflamed from all the walking from the past few days. My foot constant hurts and tired. Don’t know why.