2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me. Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog I have been […]

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2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me. Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog I have been […]

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2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me.

Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog

I have been dealing with a lot of pain since, how my leg and foot haven’t healed as it should. I like, i have some high knee boots ( Yes, men boots. ) I like them cus, they good for my foot. but, my ankle doesn’t like it.  The front part of my ankle. I get a sharp tight knot pain like being stabbed when, I do step.

I haven’t really been doing any PT for a long while but, I am having a hard time to push my self to do it. I( am mostly dealing with my recovery alone. I dont have someone who is with me help me to get better the best i can but, I need to press my self more but, I dont have any PUSH from the inside. I dont know why and I dont know where, I could get it.

I did get a pair of boots that, I can where but, I believe that, I have worn them out cus, my ankle part of the boot feels so, soft and weak.
I just don’t know.

Also, I have been dealing with some pain in my knee

for some how, my screw came loose. Who could have guess that.

I hope, that i could get some views and comments who anyway.

(Dec. 10th, 2016) Day – 767

I am dealing with a lot of pain right now. I don’t know what the reason. It could be the screws or how missed up my leg and foot is. I can’t see a PT to help it but I got to do my Pt all by my self. That’s is very hard for me to do it. I having a hard time wanting to write cus, I am dealing with depression. I am hope get that fixed soon when, I see my PDOC. I also, dealing with a lot of weakness in my leg. Sigh

-Shoes From Hell


       Dealing with this foot/ankle injury that stops you from doing Mach anything that, would be easy for anyone without one. 
   Just think about it, I can’t jump and dance, stand on my toes without think about how it will affect my leg/foot. 

  I am consent in fear of pain that it will make me feel in the end. I feel pain even, just walking. 

    Converse is on the worst shoes to ever wear when you go though that I am going though. 

  I do feel by lonely about going though this. Sigh. 

7/9/16 Day- 599

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  ~Whole Foods~

 

I have been not feeling ok for couple days. I best to sat is that, I am depressed but its more a mixed episode. Its more depression. Anyway, I took a walk with my Son to Whole foods. Its was a nice walk. Wife sent me to get few things and it was hot out. We went to starbucks to get a cup of water. It tasted good. I not sure if, it was cus, we were thirsty or it did taste good.

My leg been hurting and Its like its always some kind of pain and I hate that, I am always in some kind of pain. I need to find a foot doctor so, I can better. I also should start to do some PT but, its so hard to do it all by my self and this is hard for me to deal with. I mean, i feel all alone with this. I want someone to be here to go through this but, i am mostly me. I hate it. Sigh. I walked today like, almost 3 miles.

 

Dishes and Stuff

This is my first post that won’t be talking about how my day went but other than writing stuff that, I deal with and I think about. This is just talking about me just doing dishes thought my 1 year and 3 month of pain and hard time.

I mostly want to reach out to people who going though this or been though that, y’all are not alone and other’s out there understand. I may be one person but, I would like to be used to help someone who feel all alone or lost.

-Beginning

After, I got my leg broken from being hit fro the SUV and than, getting the rod in. I most was on bed rest. It sucked like, hell and I felt so many things from (bad husband that I could’ve get up help my wife), restless from being in bed all day. Bed resting is no fun at all.

I couldn’t help but, sit there when, I got little better, I crawled to the kitchen like, a crab but going backwards. That was a workout it self. Pulling your self when, you holding you leg up or not using it so, you other legs and mostly your arms doing th work. It’s hurts. At times, I would have too just lay there and rest from crawling. Like, felt like I did 200 push ups.

Anyway, I have to do the dishes in the wheelchair and push myself up with my hands and do something for 30 sec and sit than go back up. I would be so tired from doing it that, I would need to sleep and it would take me a while to do it. (SIGHT)

Middle 

I have gotten better but, I would have needed to us the crutches but, I can do so much work or standing. It’s hell and I resent standing out doing any work that gets me to stand.

Now

now I can do so much , I still deal with poison but, it mostly goes by how. Much work that I co. Most ly pttd gets in the way.